Tuesday, October 30, 2007

ARGH. I AM VERY BORED. Today another day jus passed like this. So I just cam-whored a bit, to spice up this boring blog page you are reading.

Just trying to force a smile on myself. I know it look dumb. Come on, I am just trying to make u people laugh. I have never ever being good at smiling though.

It still sucks I know. SHHHHH. -.-

Lastly the knocker.

Yeah. dun say anything. i know it sucks. LOL. A tribute to >.<

Anyway, life still goes on.

I tried to cry to make it better.

But numb I felt after too much.

It was just stupid.

We were sitting back to back, and I didn’t realize it at all.

That back of yours, still familiar as always.

And I just can’t just hug that back again.

Fate had played a sarcastic joke on me.

6:39 PM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.

Friday, October 26, 2007

What i wanted is ASSURANCE.

Not breakup.

8:43 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

ARGH.

I dunno what is happening.

I am just drowning myself in alcohol again everynight.

What should ii turn to when my Vodka finally finish?

I dunno. Everything is just NOT right anymore.

Please, do something to assure me.

You are fading away from me.

I had a dream,

a terrible nightmare.

So I tried to embrace your now absent back,

Seeking the comfort it always offered.

Just one more time.

Stay by my side, forever and ever,

To banish those howling visions.

I don’t want to lose you again,

As I make sure you are there.

Though I might one day consider this a mistake.

The wind in your hair, is so very beautiful indeed.

9:05 PM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Phew, so long since I have last blogged.

3 months huh?

First thing first. Congrat to myself, after months and months of training, and almost getting myself being sacked by the club, I have managed to squeeze in to the top few competitive archers, and I will be representing RP this Saturday in POL-ITE, a competition arrange for polys and ITEs to get together and rub off the skills. And as u can see from the name itself, its spelled, POL-ITE, POL vs ITE. >.<>

Oh yea, come support support lehz! It will be in the morning at Singapore Polytechnic! This Saturday!

Lastly, it hadn’t be really tht fun at all recently.

They jus dunno how it can affect sis and me.

They promised not to again, and there they are doing it again.

Cant they get a life for themselves?

Stop asking me to choose this or that.

I dun wanna choose and I dun wanna know.

Just let me be like that for all I want.

I need a shoulder.

Avoid and escape.

My world is crashing down on me right now,

Right at the blink of my road to salvation.

I just wanna be wasted again.

Chivas.

1:04 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.

Friday, August 17, 2007

I am too overwhelmed by everything,
today is the last lesson of science,
lessong 16.
i will simply copy paste my RJ out.

- Too early to say goodbye - Are you ready to bid your class farewell at the end of the semester? How do you think you have grown or progressed as class? Given a choice, would you opt to remain in this class for the next semester?

Yeah. Too early yet, just too early that I dun wanna face it. Farewell have never ever being easy, especially with a clique that are so matched to you. Seriously, I dun wanna bid farewell to anyone in my class now, or to any faci. Maybe after I changed class, I will meet more interesting friends and faci, but if I could, I would rather give up this chance and remain like this with my class for the next semester, or ever next year if it could! But well, there is never a never ending party, parting are always waiting at the end of every wonderful story. But nonetheless, I have learned lots of thingys throughout this few months. It felt like it had been so long, like a year long secondary class gonna split out at the end of the year. I learned my thingys from others, Larry’s positive attitude, Bernard’s calm and composed front, Felicia’s learning attitude, Esther’s kindness, and many many more. Its like I still have many many to learn from all of them, yet we had to part here halfway. This will be a test, if we really treated one another like buddies, we will still take time out for lunch together and all that during breakouts, so it shouldn’t be a problem. But what I moaned over is that, the time where everyone’s action in the class, those classic quote of “Cool Cool” and many many more will be missed. Sigh.

I know I am kinda writing out of point, as I didn’t really state wad I learned, as reading this RJ question, I can say it’s the toughest I ever had to write, the feeling of having to hold back my tears while continuing tapping the keyboard are driving me to draw blanks from my brain. I apologise if I write out of point, but I really feel like writing everything out since this is the last science lesson. Shitty man, ARGH. I am actually a very soft person, a crybaby. I bet I will cry at the bbq. Or perhaps on the last day of semester. Right now I am crying over this rj question already, and how am I supposed to say goodbye on that actual day?! ARGH.

Perhaps, changing class are good too, as I have many friends from IG complaining how disharmony their classes are, and how they wan to change class fast. When they said that, they just make me feel even more cherished as I have a great class. No politics, no hatred for anyone, no grudges. Even when team are being shoot like shit during presentation, after they sat down, they will still smile and say, “Hey, brothers right? NO HARD FEELING EH~” XD and laughter will just broke out after that. Tell me, when can u find these in a politic driven class? Yea, perhaps changing class is good, as we have to think of those who does not have good classmates. I will wan to change if I have a lousy class, and thus I think changing class are good.
But, say I am selfish, say I am evil, say I am stubborn and say I am self-centered. I jus don’t wish to change class! My class are so great that I believe its gonna be a loss if I have to part with any of them. I dun wan to care about those people who aren’t in a good class, its their fault for not building a bond with their class, I stubbornly stand on this point. I rather they continue to suffer in their class than taking away my classmates! ARGH. Shitty, I am losing it.
Its all just becos I do not prefer to change class at all.

W25B.
There will not be a W25B like us again.
And a thank you to you, YiSheng, your class were enjoyable and I like ya class more than any others’.

Hope u will be my faci for science again.

And the last RJ I will submit to you, I hope I have not disappoint you too much in ya class, I tried all my best in ya class, and I hope u aren’t angered by me for not submitting some of them, as u encourage me countless time that i would have get a A if I submitted it. If I knew it would be this painful writing this last RJ, I would have put in double efforts for those missed RJs. I am sorry. Right now, I just feel so bu gan xin for everything, for missing ur lessons, missing the time to be with w25b. i just feel so bu gan xin.

I just wished I can turn back everything, and not miss a single day.

10:30 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

ARGH.
So long since i last blogged.
there a few thingy on my mind right now.

firstly, baobei!

BAOBEI!

STIL IS BAOBEI! XD

everything are in very good shape now!
and i am loving her more!
and so is she, right? ;D

recovered from my illness already.
thanks to baby for taking care of me,
like telling me,
"CHICKEN CHUNK U CANNOT EAT!",
"THIS ONE IS FRIED ONE U CANNOT EAT ALSO BABY!"
HAHA. its this silly thingy which make me feel so content just being with her. (;
thanks baobei!

then finally, the dreaded separation.

its coming alraedy huh,
time passed so fast everyone, everyone in W25B.
after the BBQ which are coming soon,
i guess we will all part from here already huh.
shit i sound so paranoid. maybe we can still come out often
for lunch during breakouts huh.
yea, i hope so.
but i have seen more than enuff of cases where everyone have their
own friends after parting ways. and it just get hard to feel like the same
old times when u have find urself a new clique.

hoze's jokes.
hiong's actions.
malvyn's "cool cool, cool man"
haven's singing.
sammy's hair.
larry's monkey action.
louis' lifting of head when giggling.
bernard's lame jokes.
feliciat's witch-like laughter.
kenneth's war with ain.
ain's continuing borrowing of my lappy's cloth.
shayren's cool guy image.
surain's nicole's history of overslept.
liangjun's closeness with guys.
zhangwei's solutions to all formulas.
prislin's ability to ban larry from talking.
shawn's addictive of games.
wanling's image of a innoncent kid.
alvin's quietness.
esther's kindness to everyone.
shereen's bimbo-ness.

These are all the thingy which i will keep it with me.
although some are a bit kua zhang.
but i swear this are all the bits which reminds me of all of u.
how i hope W25B will last another 6months, or even 2 more years.
but there are nv a nv-ending party.
everyday in school was as fun as we are having a party.
lets just hope that our BBQ will be a fun one,
and hopefully, not a teary one.
i knew i will cry if anyone of u cry 1st,
so dun CRY. ROAR.

maybe one day walking down some street,
and i managed to bump into any of you,
i promise i will say "hellos" 1st,
as i will nv forget any of you.


It shall all be stored inside the mind
as sweet thingy called "memories".

W25B,
there wont be another W25B like us.

7:26 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.

Monday, August 6, 2007

Have archery until 7.
Baby was waiting for me at causeway,
as i have her lappy with me! heh!
but when i met her at causeway,
i dun feel like going home yet,
so we though we could go catch a movie!

we are thinking to catch simpson,
until baby point to me a poster:

SNEAK TODAY

"SECRET"

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
its the show i wanted to watch!!!!!!! ROAR!
JAY CHOU!!!!!!
just in case u ppl nv know,
i had always said that,
"If Jay and I ever had a chance to meet, i will willingly turn gay for him."
YEAH! my all close fren know that! LOL.
the whos was 7.15, but its 7.30 already!
BUT I DUN MIND!
we quickly bought the ticket and i RAN in!
leaving baby behind! XD LOL.
baby quoted that, "Wah, you are so high all about him! >.< "
heh, cant help.
tht cool and handsome guy on the screen,
is forever your biggest rival, baby! HAHA. JOKING.

Now to the show.
Before u continue reading this,
there may be spoiler about the movie.
i will try to briefly give a view of what i tot abt the show,
without spoiling too much okay?

Its a love story every couple would dream to have.
From happiness to devastating scene of tears,
the tempo and the progress speed of the show was well timed,
there is never a boring scene u will dread at throughout the show.
Then there are always those small action from Jay which shows
you that he is, by all mean, Jay.
if u said jay cant act, catch this movie and think again.
it will amazed you and change ya opinion.
if it dun, u must admit jay improved a big gap!
and more, it was directed, editted, and timed all by Jay himself.
personally, i din expect it to be such a great film on his debutant directed film.
i was bringing a thinking that i will just enjoy becos its Jay,
but i was wrong, every scene impressed me, seriously.
A great performance by him, better than initial D or the curse of golden flower,
he had more chance to demostrate his conversation skill,
musical touches, expression communication, and the way he tease
and coordinate with the actress, those eyes contact make u fully
understand what is going on despite not a word being mention. argh.
They made such a great couple u must say.
but sadly, it was a separation dimension love

Jay as Xiao Jie(jay) and Lun Mei Kwai as Xiao Yu (rain).
Both bonded by their love of music, came together in the most
slightest amazing touch of fate.
Their love was sweet, but a secret loom around them
just as secretive as the movie title are, which set u think and twist before u catch the movie.
i must admit, it had been long since i seen such a wonderful plot of romance film.
it kept u in suspense from the mid part until the very end.
probably best chinese romacne film of the year.
even though the ending was simply out to let u think of a ending yourself,
the opening and climate have done more than enough to worth your movie ticket,
no no no, worth your 2 MOVIE TICKETS! XD
it make u wan to cherish those by your side even more.
suitable for all age! PLS go catch it! i am booking my second ticket to watch it already! (;
if u play piano, watch it. u will learn lots of thingy from there.
if u wan to have a sweet time with ya beau, ya will be embraced by the film
that u may hug ya partner even more harder.

overall 4.5/5

it would have been better if it gives other characters like jay's dad
some plot so tht it wont feel that they are jus some empty casing.

Why shld u watch: Jay and the girl. the sweetness of the film. the twist of plot.
music played in the whole film. pianos. black humor.
great progress tempo. the touching and beautiful scene here and there.
the ending which will make u think deep of the path choosen
if it happen to you.

Why shld u not watch: if u hate jay, and u jus love blood spilling out here and there and not prepared to watch a romance show. get a life, u dun complain abt graphics or wad when u are
watching a romance show right? its the plot and atmosphere! i advised u take a knife and chop
your own finger, thts gore if u wan!

and dang dang! there u go for a review on the film!
it may a bit biased as i am a hardcore Jay fanatic,
but just watch it and prove me wrong if you can!
Enjoy the film! (;

8:06 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.