My SURREAL memories.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
woah.
it has really been so long since i last post.
excatly 1 week.
everything is over.
and i am reall glad.
and now, we live like how we did in the past.
maybe its becos tht we just got back recently,
and i am afraid to lose her even more,
and i start to behave very sensitive.
i wan to view her every msg, see how she is talking to and all that,
and getting real easy to jealous right now.
yea, typical.
jus hopefully this will go away soon.
but although everything is fine.
i still feel that something is missing right now.
its nth important, but something are jus feeling not right.
prehaps this is result of a serious quarreling,
and it will take some time before everything will revert to normal.
but tht feeling of uneasy is really haunting me,
those silent between us when walking,
those time when we just could not find anything to talk abt.
yea, its taking a toll on me.
is it becos tht incident still linger in our minds?
i dunno, and i dun wanna to know.
but i am determined to overcome it.
for now, thts all about in my life.
working later.
tata.
12:05 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
i am glad.
grateful.
i made a mistake, and i regret.
i am grateful that u are willing to give me a chance.
how i will be if u had really gone.
its at the last moments tht i realise how important u are.
i will cherish it.
i swear.
loves for u will never change.
i am sorry,
i love u.
9:52 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Friday, July 20, 2007
i nv thought i will ever need to do this again.
especially after i have met u.
yea, they call it "emo"?
or simple, the call it act of crazyness.
its my fault, i do not deny.
but, wad happened has happended.
u are not willing to anything i said.
i dun blame anyone, but myself.
ppl, pls dun waste blood, especially if u are A type.
i had a fren in hospital right now,
suffering from lukenia, he needs a A blood type.
i am an O type, so its okay.
if u happen to read this post,
i hope u will not come to me and says, " WHY DID U CUT URSELF AGAIN?!"
or "U ARE TRYING TO BE STUPID AGAIN RIGHT?"
i know its wrong, but u ppl know i am a bit paranoid and add on to my emo-ness,
i cant find any better ways make me feel the pain of parting wif her lesser..
i am sorry to those who care for me.
i am sorry.
i promised nv to cut again,
but i wasnt able to keep it.
i guess there wont be any more promises for me after today,
i will be silloute hallow shell wandering around from now on.
ivan is dead.
8:06 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
So much thingy happened.
i lost alot of thingy in this whole incident.
i regret.
pls forgive me.
i dun wan to lose you baby.
its all my mistake, all my fault.
7:16 PM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
today was suppose to our happy day,
but my carelessness ruined it all.
baby, i am sorry.
its all my fault, i admit it.
i didnt see the potential danger of it,
and i paid the price now.
i deeply accepted its my fault,
and i learned my lesson.
i am jus afraid that i cant protect u,
thts y i am taking a passive stance.
i know u will take time to believe me,
i will wait,
but i really do not know wad to do already.
i am sorry baby.
pls forgive me.
to think i was still happily making special donuts for you ytd,
yet i ruined it all today.
i regretted.
7:09 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
1st of all,
to those bastards who irritated baby,
u ppl better dun appear again,
if u do, i promise i will hunt you all down.
trust me, i will hunt u down.
Ewwww, i got bullied today.
Who else could it have been eh? -.-
Finally, i went to her house for the 1st ever tme today!
it is quite nice! around the size of my house,
or a little big bigger ba!
but when i enter the room... -.-"
those enthic of mine start working up..
THE ROOM IS IN A MESS! >.<
lols, but i will believe its ya little bro who messed it up,
right baby? ;D
double decker beds.. i always wanted to have one!
i like to be on high high! (;
then we lie down on the bed as usual,
trying to enjoy the silent and falling asleep.
THEN THE BULLYING STARTS.
baby bully me, she keep telling me to look at her,
and threaten me that if i dun do so, she will kick me down the bed. x(
then when ii look at her right in the eyes,
she will start licking whole over my face... EWWWWWWW.
yea it its so gross! i dunno why baby can come up wif smth like
to bully me! ><
but somehow, i enjoy it. LOL.
its ticklish, but kinda feel good too!
maybe its becos its baby licking, if its someone else,
i bet their tongue would have be torn off their mouth.
yea, GORE. ;D
and yea, i countered her,
i lick her back too! ALL OVER THE FACE!
MUAHAHAAS.
lols, ppl, pls dun distance urself from us after reading all these,
we are friendly, we will behave in public. XD
somehow, baby is super high today.
super wild, right baby? (;
guess wad?
she took all the tempo today on bed!
HAHAHAHAHA.
and seeing her enjoy so much,
i hope she delicate the tempo more often from now on! ;D
I Just Love My Wild Little Sweetheart Baby!muacks. (;
7:40 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Friday, July 13, 2007
very soon,
i will be at causeway point,
selling donuts at Mucnchy Donuts!
if u dunno wad tht is,
let me tell u!
the main branch is a ketong there,
where people will line up for 3 hrs jus to buy a donut from there!
yes, i arent joking!
and its paying me 6 bucks per hour,
so i dun mind being involved in this wierd sensation! (;
so please come by to Cold Storage at causeway point
during the weekends to support me!
i will give u 1 free donut if u buy from me! XD
oh yea, i got ANOTHER A for my enterprise!
lols, dun say i am being BHB or smth,
i am just trying to spurs the rest of u to work hard! ><
and dun skip class and hide at library to play games!
heh heh,
i know wad u ppl did the last computing class..
games are for noobs! remember? XD
baby baby! lets sell donuts together!
but ewww, i scare later u work wif me,
i wont serve the customers too well,
becos all my attention will be drawn on to u! =x
hahas! i love u baby! (;
9:10 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XUAN LOY!
aka my cousin aka my uncle! (;
i din come sch today!
becos my alarm clock sucks.
times and times again i have forgive him for
not waking me up on time,
but today!
I GOT A BLOODY UT!!!!!!
i cant stand him anymore!
i jus gave him the boot! XD
and ofcos, i have found my new alarm!
MY BABY! <3
she will call me to wake me up from tml onwards!
i am sure i wont miss any class starting from now! (;
the process of rebuilding is always hard,but i believe it will be fine and smooth from now on.i love the silent on the car,when i rest on ya shoulder,i am draw close to u by ya scent.i jus love the scent on ya neck baby.its never too late to return me ya heart baby,i would had wait forever for you.i jus wan to let u know, i hope our love had nv changed,becos my love for u stayed the same during tht period.baby, i love u.we shall rebuild it together. (;
9:26 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Monday, July 9, 2007
Finally its settled.
No more clashing of our lifes.
No more paranoid and wild thoughts of what may happened.
Let whatever shall be forgotten,
to be forgotten.
Forget tht night,
its our impulsive which make things like that.
Hopefully it will be okay from now on.
We shall be our best fren as we had always been.
Just stay like that, and no more confrontations and stuffs.
I shall call this a beautiful accident to be forgotten.
Ewww,my poetry sense coming liao,
better stop before it get too over!
I am sry i felt like a stranger to u,
i will make it up for u tml!
If u are reading this, i just wan say,
i miss u and love u baby! (;
9:44 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Sunday, July 8, 2007
wtf.
dunno wad just strike me,
i have suddenly become emo again.
nowadays. every few times in a month,
i will start to feel paranoid and emo out of nowhere.
so i am sry to those people i pissed off,
sry that i am like a pest to u.
out of sudden, i just pissed 3 ppl from msn, and 2 from sms. -.-"
i am sorry.
pls dun take it to hearts.
i am deeply sorry la.
7:12 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Just 3 days.
So much thingy have happen in my life.
this fateful 3 days.
i am in a bloody confuse right now,
dunno what to do and all that.
u came, went away, and came back again.
i am ofcos happy that u came back,
but this mean, u may jus went away like how u did.
i dunno wad to say and wad to do.
i will jus say, tht really took a knock in my confidence.
then some other matters also happend,
which really took a toll on my mind.
friends issue, and some family issue.
how that night prove to be fateful,
i dunno.
but i just wan say,
whatever i said,
i am serious and i meant it.
and i will not give up without a fight,
and i hope u will not give up easily too.
i cut my hair,
very short than usual.
it was intentional.
for everyone who mock at my new short hair,
i will rmb the pain of making a wrongful decision,
and this will be a way to remind me not to make the same mistake again.
12:13 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Monday, July 2, 2007
HAHAS.
i am freaking happy!
baby calls me HONEY now! XD
i wan baby to ***** me in the future! (;
today had archery.
wasnt really quite on form today.
still trying to see which stance suits me more,
open or square stance.
when using open stance, i am comfortable with it,
and my arrows are quite constant, but there are still mistake with my posture,
like follow through and anchoring.
when using square stance, the posture is quite correct,
but its not really that constant compared to the fore.
hahas, i used too much jargon huh?
bet most of u wont understand! XD
and this sound like computing latest problem right? LOL.
debate between constant and posture. XD
HAHA.
anyway, very tired right now!
tml got MATH UT,
hope its common sense based again, as i din study any of the 6p again. -.-"
cya dudes! (;
9:25 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.
Sunday, July 1, 2007
i take back my words.
it wasnt wad i wanted baby.
i am sorry.
what i wan is, "forever",
and what i said, is just becos i am infused by anger at that moment.
i am sorry baby.
i dun mean it.
but u shld also take it as a warning.
u shldnt
lie again.
loves.
9:42 AM
letting the truth, slip away from my finger slowly.