Friday, August 17, 2007
I am too overwhelmed by everything,
today is the last lesson of science,
lessong 16.
i will simply copy paste my RJ out.
- Too early to say goodbye - Are you ready to bid your class farewell at the end of the semester? How do you think you have grown or progressed as class? Given a choice, would you opt to remain in this class for the next semester?
Yeah. Too early yet, just too early that I dun wanna face it. Farewell have never ever being easy, especially with a clique that are so matched to you. Seriously, I dun wanna bid farewell to anyone in my class now, or to any faci. Maybe after I changed class, I will meet more interesting friends and faci, but if I could, I would rather give up this chance and remain like this with my class for the next semester, or ever next year if it could! But well, there is never a never ending party, parting are always waiting at the end of every wonderful story. But nonetheless, I have learned lots of thingys throughout this few months. It felt like it had been so long, like a year long secondary class gonna split out at the end of the year. I learned my thingys from others, Larry’s positive attitude, Bernard’s calm and composed front, Felicia’s learning attitude, Esther’s kindness, and many many more. Its like I still have many many to learn from all of them, yet we had to part here halfway. This will be a test, if we really treated one another like buddies, we will still take time out for lunch together and all that during breakouts, so it shouldn’t be a problem. But what I moaned over is that, the time where everyone’s action in the class, those classic quote of “Cool Cool” and many many more will be missed. Sigh.
I know I am kinda writing out of point, as I didn’t really state wad I learned, as reading this RJ question, I can say it’s the toughest I ever had to write, the feeling of having to hold back my tears while continuing tapping the keyboard are driving me to draw blanks from my brain. I apologise if I write out of point, but I really feel like writing everything out since this is the last science lesson. Shitty man, ARGH. I am actually a very soft person, a crybaby. I bet I will cry at the bbq. Or perhaps on the last day of semester. Right now I am crying over this rj question already, and how am I supposed to say goodbye on that actual day?! ARGH.
Perhaps, changing class are good too, as I have many friends from IG complaining how disharmony their classes are, and how they wan to change class fast. When they said that, they just make me feel even more cherished as I have a great class. No politics, no hatred for anyone, no grudges. Even when team are being shoot like shit during presentation, after they sat down, they will still smile and say, “Hey, brothers right? NO HARD FEELING EH~” XD and laughter will just broke out after that. Tell me, when can u find these in a politic driven class? Yea, perhaps changing class is good, as we have to think of those who does not have good classmates. I will wan to change if I have a lousy class, and thus I think changing class are good.
But, say I am selfish, say I am evil, say I am stubborn and say I am self-centered. I jus don’t wish to change class! My class are so great that I believe its gonna be a loss if I have to part with any of them. I dun wan to care about those people who aren’t in a good class, its their fault for not building a bond with their class, I stubbornly stand on this point. I rather they continue to suffer in their class than taking away my classmates! ARGH. Shitty, I am losing it.
Its all just becos I do not prefer to change class at all.
W25B.
There will not be a W25B like us again.
And a thank you to you, YiSheng, your class were enjoyable and I like ya class more than any others’.
Hope u will be my faci for science again.
And the last RJ I will submit to you, I hope I have not disappoint you too much in ya class, I tried all my best in ya class, and I hope u aren’t angered by me for not submitting some of them, as u encourage me countless time that i would have get a A if I submitted it. If I knew it would be this painful writing this last RJ, I would have put in double efforts for those missed RJs. I am sorry. Right now, I just feel so bu gan xin for everything, for missing ur lessons, missing the time to be with w25b. i just feel so bu gan xin.
I just wished I can turn back everything, and not miss a single day.