Just trying to force a smile on myself. I know it look dumb. Come on, I am just trying to make u people laugh. I have never ever being good at smiling though.

It still sucks I know. SHHHHH. -.-

Anyway, life still goes on.

I tried to cry to make it better.

But numb I felt after too much.

It was just stupid.

We were sitting back to back, and I didn’t realize it at all.

That back of yours, still familiar as always.

And I just can’t just hug that back again.

Fate had played a sarcastic joke on me.

Not breakup.

ARGH.

I dunno what is happening.

I am just drowning myself in alcohol again everynight.

What should ii turn to when my Vodka finally finish?

I dunno. Everything is just NOT right anymore.

Please, do something to assure me.

You are fading away from me.

I had a dream,

a terrible nightmare.

So I tried to embrace your now absent back,

Seeking the comfort it always offered.

Just one more time.

Stay by my side, forever and ever,

To banish those howling visions.

I don’t want to lose you again,

As I make sure you are there.

Though I might one day consider this a mistake.

The wind in your hair, is so very beautiful indeed.

Phew, so long since I have last blogged.

3 months huh?

First thing first. Congrat to myself, after months and months of training, and almost getting myself being sacked by the club, I have managed to squeeze in to the top few competitive archers, and I will be representing RP this Saturday in POL-ITE, a competition arrange for polys and ITEs to get together and rub off the skills. And as u can see from the name itself, its spelled, POL-ITE, POL vs ITE. >.<>

Oh yea, come support support lehz! It will be in the morning at Singapore Polytechnic! This Saturday!

Lastly, it hadn’t be really tht fun at all recently.

They jus dunno how it can affect sis and me.

They promised not to again, and there they are doing it again.

Cant they get a life for themselves?

Stop asking me to choose this or that.

I dun wanna choose and I dun wanna know.

Just let me be like that for all I want.

I need a shoulder.

Avoid and escape.

My world is crashing down on me right now,

Right at the blink of my road to salvation.

I just wanna be wasted again.

Chivas.